Wake

Wake By Laura Dee Battle March 5, 2015 I wish I had a reason why Every day I seem to die I burn my weathered soul to ash I burn memories of every lash Too many tears to count out loud Too many years of being proud I never lost; I never came I never tried to learn my name The final day is bittersweet For all the pain I can't defeat I'll turn it in for heavens sake I'll take the blame for my mistakes I cannot see a guiding light No hands to hold through every plight I fought alone to save my lies To save me from their daughters cries How could you know it wasn't me? How could you see I'll never be? The one you thought when I was young The hero stood where the sinner sung But how could you forgive me then? When I still see my heart in sin? Forgive me as you freely do I cannot be as kind as you Not even now, as I gasp for air Could I accept your love and prayers Whatever name you give to me Remember who I tried to be The one who fought when she was lost The one who loved, despite the cost A girl who screamed for 30 years Who lived surrounded by her fears But she was brighter than the scars She was the best of who we are She was the one who smiled for days Who never turned away a stray She found the lost ones in the dark And have them hope, without a spark Just honest words and endless love Whoever for, fit like a glove But I don't see the good in me Just promises you'll never see I tried so hard without a cause I did it all just for applause Regret will find its resting place Upon the stone I now embrace The plot will miss its fairy tale Maybe you see where I have failed So intertwine these thorny razor lines inside my spine With soaring symphonies and sweet melodies of mine And make the tragic memories of misery, simply dissipate Find the the love outside your heart and give it up to fate Don't let it all evaporate For living life... It never waits.