Waiting For the Answers

Are you going to be at my side the situation we're in gives us nowhere to hide and work for you is a nonstop project and tho we should be closer, i just feel like a reject. i've been trying so hard for the last 5 years but whats important to you are your friends and some beers and though having this baby has made things so clear now having you in my life is my biggest fear. I dont want to be alone in this all i ever get from you is "baby i'll fix this" but everyday i still wake up to a mess and i'm not supposed to feel so much stress. i thought that maybe things would come together because we've made it through all sorts of weather but the time you have gives none to me and it makes me worried where we'll be. I'll ask for a dollar you say you haven't got it I ask for a phone a call but you don't have time for it you say "i'll see you on thursday" and don't see me til Sunday and i'll be surprised if you text me on Monday. I want some stability I want some respect i'm tired of all these promises and all this neglect. I shouldnt have to worry about doing this on my own or finding things out that i should have already known and i love him so much but he still hasn't shown that with this baby, i won't be alone.