Waiting Endless Days

you once dedicated a song to me, you said, its for the most beautiful girl in the world, and when you sent me the link tears formed in my eyes, my heart was pounding fast, for once it was no suprise, i said i love you, you said i love you more, i tried to argue, but you won, of course, three months went by, with me loving you, then, i found out the truth, ....she said, are you dating him? i said yes, hes my everything, she told me that you were hers, you tried to deny her words, your lies came undone, but the pain still won, ...on and off for six months we loved no, we always loved, even when we werent dating, my heart was yours, but i was never sure, if yours was truly mine.... though you said i was the only girl you had ever loved, your entire life, in the end i swore i wouldnt go back, you couldnt be trusted, you couldnt be had, i couldnt take the tears, the death that i lived, you broke all my fears, and brought them running back, leaving me speachless, leaving me asleep, in my world of broken uncertainty, now your missing, now your gone, and i feel so so wrong, my insides are burning yet their freezing cold my lungs stop working my breath i hold praying each night that your alive praying each day that youll be okay praying always that youll come back and know i love you, i always have break my heart a million times and yet i love you, always i have my eyes are crying, worse then before, my heart is breaking, i swear its no more, my sanity is shaking, and im asking god for one thing, to bring you back, bring you back, before the blooming spring sleepless nights im unable to dream nightmares fill my mind of every bad thing praying that your okay waiting endless days i never eat i have no hunger im feeling sick feeling thunder breaking my will to go on to survive, when i dont know if your dead or alive waiting endless days never breath i hold it in before they see whats within my eyes revealing past my lies waiting for you to come back in this december death waiting endless days just please Jake, come back