Waiting

I'm waiting trying to heal these open wounds the venom of love is killing my heart confusion of what I desire? my heart that years envy that runs deep in my soul I can't fight this feeling alone, happy but distant from everyone I still waiting holding on to my pride a hurt and battered ego bleeding from the insides love hurts when it get used and abuse! I'm begging to god to heal me let my emotions run free I can't hide I'm fighting to stop these demons from emerging days weeks and month pass me by alone no heart just indecisive pain with the hope of finding someone right keep focused I say but everyday I grieve in my poetry my eyes hold that secret will someone unlock it before it dies completely I'm dying slowly , day by day wonders that turn into hurtful memories can't sleep why can't I just wait...? ask with patience , you shall receive!