Used To Be
GRACEFULLY...
If I could go back and do it all again,
I would have NEVER let you say goodbye my friend.
Want to go back to the way things used to be
To the place where u got butterflies with the thought of ME
Back to the safety of you and I still UNSURE what I did
To make u say GOODBYE
Said you were "fed up" fed up with WHAT exactly?
I thought you felt it too what was between You & Me
I never meant to invade your space
Being with YOU was my HAPPY place
I was NEVER "checking up" on YOU I'm NOT that kind of WOMEN
I NEVER interrogated YOU or asked "what you been doing?"
Your on my mind wish I KNEW the right words to say
hurts so much that you so easily pushed me AWAY
YOU said was "NO LONGER FUN"
that hurt SOO bad NOT definatley ready for THAT one
Told me you were "fed up" want to call it quits
NOW I am WEAK & vulnerable I'm Ashamed to admit
Just want to express where I am coming from
Your words completely CRUSHED me when u said that your "DONE"
I was NOT done not even close
FOR ME ur like a DRUG
I NEEDED another dose
I KNOW what we had I was there too
I know you were scared don't open up easily
You PROMISED you wouldn't hurt ME
Things were going well we were growing CLOSE
it's our FRIENDSHIP that I miss the MOST
We had connection that's VERY hard to find
Was built on friendship and its uniquely YOURS & MINE
WISH we could go back to the place where we were newfound friends
My heart swelling with EVERY message that you'd send
I KNEW months ago that Cupids arrow was calling
Easier to ignore and kid myself that I wasnt FALLING
A "breakup" inevitable YOU told me SO
Don't understand why it's SO HARD to let you GO
I KNOW IN my head
I have to MOVE on and face REALITY
No as easy as it sounds because you mean so much to ME
To me this separation is very REAL and it surely HURTS
still care for you deeply
Which makes it all WORSE
I was UNAWARE that we had a problem thought everything was ALRIGHT
YOU were my FIRST thought in the morning
And the LAST one at night
You did and STILL do mean so much to me
CANT ignore our attraction and MUTUAL chemistry
Hurts SO much U don't want to talk to me
Tell myself let go and face REALITY
Don't get to attached I reminded myself and believe me I TRIED
I am Surprised at my own reaction and all the tears that I've cried
I ADORE you just want you to KNOW
was so unprepared for you to let me GO
We got along so well from the start easy to see
My heart aches nothing I can do
I'm pretty sure you know by now that I fell in LOVE with YOU
Please KNOW that I am NOT ANGRY not even a little upset
it took TWO of us to get here and I have NO REGRET
I enjoyed each and every minute that we SHARED
You made me HAPPY And I KNOW that you CARED
WE had desire passion and LUST
SO many nights I lay awake dreaming of your tender touch
I NEVER wish you I'll will only happiness and health in all you do
KNOW there's always a special place in my heart ALWAYS just for YOU
Know that I ADORE you
Wish you SUCESS in everything U put ur mind to
It was truly a pleasure getting to know YOU
You are smart witty and special just to name a few
My world NOW a little Darker cuz it doesn't have YOU
It's OK you don't need to say it
I KNOW how YOU feel about ME
BUT now I must take what's left of my dignity
And try and walk away from YOU ...gracefully
Copyright © Diana Vee | Year Posted 2016
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