Used As a Door Mat No Longer

I've always been settling When others are meddling In my life never knowing I'm upset and will start showing My true colors that's been hiding But they are burning and sliding Up my throat and they will be Released with intensity That will shock you with surprise The woman before your eyes Is not silent any more My emotional back door Will be flooding you so much When my feelings start to rush Out of me because I can't Stop this crazy insane rant Those that ever did me wrong Will get my wrath that's so strong Because I'm no longer weak My crazy and hot peak Has been hidden and burnt out Until one more scream and shout Woke it up and made it start Flickering so bright and hot Sometimes people see my sweetness As a sign of total weakness There's only so much I employ Before I shut down and destroy The people who are so smug Thinking I will only shrug Thier nastiness off once more That's how I was just before I was forced to act upon All the hurt, sorrow and wrong I've endured from childhood Growing I tried to be good Not acting and retaliate On this undeserving hate Until someone goes to far Pushing this angelic star To the dark side of a world Of demons that have hurled Me into a place never known On my face it's clearly shown My fingers making a fist My insides starting to twist Feelings of a new kind Start to fill my unclear mind I no longer have control of I'm about to push and shove Right back without any frets Bullies are gonna regret Treating me like a door mat I've had it and THAT IS THAT