Urges

This reputation of unwanted feelings appearing up at the wrong moments has become predictable. My mind, body and soul have become depleted and there’s nowhere left to go. I’ve been trying to rebuild who I am but when I look in the mirror the past is always latching on. I weep at night waiting for the will to live to be strong enough to break this grip. My demons cackle knowing that I'm not powerful enough to let them go