Unyielding Pain

Would it be best if I just went away? Never again see the light of day, You said you hated me, Do you even know what those words did to me? I curled up in a ball and withered away, Not even listening to what mother would say, She would cry out I don't want to lose my baby, She saw my cold, distant eyes and knew she had already, My mother never again knew paradise, No one could help her not even Jesus Christ, Maybe if you had not chosen to say the words you said, I probably wouldn’t be here on my death bed, Now my whole family feels my pain, What is this is this you’re little game, Once my family's pain and suffering is over, I will lay down my weapons and lend them my clover, Who knows now where my spirit will go, No one but Jesus and God will know, Maybe I will go up,up,up and beyond, Trying to patch up my severed bond, But if I go down,down,down, I must hope to drown, Because there the Devil's Chamber lay, Every soul hopes to get out, but none get away, Now you must hope you don't end up like me, Go ahead think that you are free, Go on spend all your lousy time, Waste all your money until you don't have a dime, When you have lost everything and you have past, I will be back quick and very fast, You will see me at your gate, Now I welcome you to your gruesome fate, You ask me why am I here, I say did you think I would just disappear, A second passed and I shoved you in your door, You’re screaming Dear God I can't take anymore, Now you will suffer and feel mine and everyone's pain, I am off to get on my afterlife train, Who knows I might stay here on Earth, After all I have been rebirthed, Now my heart is set at ease, Time is no more at a freeze, Now my family can move on, Because that monstrous person is forever gone!