Untitled Depression

Been down so long it made me want to get high I like to calculate my moves, but I always struggled in math Drinking coffee to wake me because it seems to be the only thing to make me, feel alive So, I water my mocha flowers Wondering if they will feel the same thing Then maybe I wouldn't be so alone Like the sword in the stone Sometimes I just want someone The right one to choose me It's like I'm bleeding but there is no wound An unexplainable pain, or an unhappy rain Cloud That can't stop crying To many use the figure of speech "I'm dying" Without knowing what it feels like, when you feel as if you are one right turn from a car flip in the middle of traffic And it feels like the only right thing to do When you wonder if there is a knife big enough to reach your heart because it does not seem to be working right When you don't have enough pills to oD on, so you go to the store looking for medicine that won't help you live When maybe trying drugs is the only option When you're still going but the world is just stopping No signs in sight I'm crashing and not even angel wings could save this flight Feel like I tried with all my might, but it didn't even matter My matter is fading away My aura is burnt out My candle is just a full flame somebody forgot to put out Hanging on for dear life Dear God, please tell me what I'm doing right Because I can't find a reason to continue to hold on tight Ready to let go Whether it be the pain or optimism Life is so simple and strange p.s. be careful with what you gain...