Untitled Continued

I allow myself to be pulled along only so I wont be alone.But actually that's not it.Next to anyone I could sit.But anyone I don't want.Be what I desire, they wont.So stay in pain I will.Have my heart crushed and killed.So my mind will be satisfied.Even if he continues to lie.Although I can't be what she is all I now is I have this:my personal love,my inside me,the only one I know for my,will always be. And as he tells me one thing I always see another.She loves him and he her.No matter how much he tells me I know it's not right. Forget those past, together, emotion filled nights. He says he's confused and tied between us two. But I know in my heart he's made up his mind on what he's going to do. And my name isn't involved, my face is scratched out of the picture. He decided around her his world would revolve. So against my wishes, because I know they don't come true, just as well as him I decided what to do. And only my name is involved. Only around me my world revolves. My tears become my ocean and my heart my universe. Without him I have to face it, because in his eyes the love he fakes it. I am stronger without him, and I'm going to let them be them. Because I know if I was her I wouldn't want me to be here. I know the love I once had for him needs to disappear