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I hold my breath not knowing what to expect next, keeping my eyes closed, afraid to see whats right in front of me. Shutting myself out from the world, wanting them to believe that i am an ordinary girl. I was left to cry there, alone, feeling full of shame. This pain that I cant undo. So I just lay there And let the ocean of life drown me in its powerful waves And let the coulds of life wash me away with its thunderstorm. They say to suck it up and things will get better soon, well how soon is soon? because its been years and Im still drowning in my own tears I hold on for dear life, not letting go of this grip. but then i give up because I cant take it I fall and no body's there to catch me Like i told you before I'm alone in this world Im not an ordinary girl I lay there listening to Avril, letting my blood drip Because i just dont give a-