Unspoken Gratitude

Today I found out that some people still care and somehow I believe in the feelings they'd shared, even though I'd assumed they'd rather look away, that they're shaking their heads, that they've nothing to say. Did they know I'd be sober? Its two months today that I drank that last beer, threw the emptys away. Then she tells me she's thinking about me each day and my heart starts to break.. I don't know what to say. Then the next thing she says lights my soul like a candle "God won't put on your shoulders what you can't handle." I know she's sincere.. I've taken her for granted. God help me to water the seed that she's planted. Someday I must thank her for being sincere and for still having hope where I only had fear. I will try to forget how I gave in again, even though I knew I could not win in the end. And the years that I've wasted preserving my pride because I am so selfish selfish.. a master of lies. So tonight I'll lay here all alone in this bed but I won't take a drink.. I believe what she said