Unremitting Serenade (Part Three)

He came into your life from afar At first he stood and watched from a distance He whispered not to you but to another Then he stepped closer to call forth-another one This one like you Sorrow called forth Nanator and with him your soul He faded and tainted your most precious gift He reached out to fleck my wings with grey too that day For that day he nearly filled the well again Still he had barely begun and his work grew ever closer to us both This time he whispered to you from a foot away Thus thrice he reached out to call forth another Yet each time ‘twas I who wept for our suffering For no tears have fallen from thine eyes in many years Still Sunder gave you something in return for all he had stolen Didn’t he . . . didn’t he For all the bits and pieces of your soul You were given something so dearly precious it hurt to have it And now you lament with a voice to be heard By the few who were to know the one buried so deep inside The few to be loved and to love you Desolation knew this would be so So he whispers to you often now and from afar Knowing that you cannot help but to listen and to grieve With your new voice Though it rarely rises above a breath to be a whisper It sings of your great disenchantment Your disbelief and your faith in the void It allows you to cry To tell the tale and story of your greatest sorrow Within you there lies a faith of something more And the desire to see And cause the light to glimmer within another’s eyes One whose life could carry your hopes within them To lend your strength to One who might have all that you denied yourself For these long and many years So heavy upon your shoulders And yet this can never be and this is what despairs you so For none to follow you None at all Never Never” And thus she spoke to me plainly To show me my loss of faith anew So in her despair in her sorrow My unbelief breathes again My search for desolation reborn For this knowledge too great to bear Thus I fled and so it was I ran A great many years I hid myself deep within Beyond the reach of sunlight and the eye of the moon And in the darkness I tore out all that caused my pain I read everything again To see And to know Why it was I had So long ago embraced wholly my unbelief