Unnoticed

Baby, when I picked up that knife And danced with the devil tonight, Bleeding in the gums from sadistic delight Gripping my insanity with all my might. I tried to hold on, didn’t want to let go, Loved to sit and watch this show, As I paraded around this circle of pain No corners to hide in my disdain, Laughing from the recesses of my tainted fame Eyes rolling in guilty shame I watched on. Long gone. From sanity’s hold The icy needle feels painfully cold, Tasting the sweet death on my lips, The blood red skin bitter-sweet to kiss Paranoid flesh jumping at a sound As I clenched my jaw around A greying soul sinking too low, Ripped at the frail shell, as it fell I lost control. Did it show? Screamed in the mirror, broke the glass Cackled at the horror in the shards, Wanted to laugh in your god damn face As I howled in disgrace Tearing at the flesh that burned my soul But you’d long lost your hold, Too far away, worlds apart So to Lucifer I gave my heart. It was black, small, he wanted it all Gobbled it up, then a disgusting hiss Leaning in for one last sickening kiss And I, resigned to what I was… Wept at your memory in a brief twist Drew my small hand into a fist, Why aren’t you here, to save me, dear? Can you even understand? The hollowness of this barren land That has become me. I’ve lost all hope; it died within, now with his manic grin, The last tear froze on my cheek; I gave my last guttural shriek; Whilst you assumed I was peacefully asleep.