Unexplainable Heart

was there ever a time where u didnt know how to feel? what words to even say or what feelings to conceal? emotions u didnt want to hold and the things u say are cold some days its not easy to turn the page thoughts of being trapped in a cage scared to even move but eager to run days u sit there wishing it was done no this mess aint fun sitting there wondering if its easier to speak clawing to get away but ur feeling so weak off in a corner with complete devastation words unspoken with no contemplation hopes and dreams failing to come true so many things i still have to go through before i open my heart to the pain frozen emotions and a cold soul i blame is this just a mind game? emotions still trapped and a heart still broken giving up is an option but not whats spoken curled up in fetal position on the floor eyes dried out, puffy and sore this isnt how i imagined myself to feel inside but this happy place inside me completely died i cant seem to find these emotions in me blinded by confusion i will never see will i ever know these feelings inside of me?? by taneia j. nelson