Undivided Affection

I need a little change of pace take a flight to outer space make an attempt to paint a face upon a planet without moons make an attempt to just spin across the rings of Saturn I just need a little change of pace change of air, change of atmosphere maybe I'll sing a ballad of Myria Well I could but if I should I'd just be singing another lovesick ballad of another fish who swam off the hook I'd just be singing another lovesick ballad how I had to part ways from an angel so far away I will go as far as to admit I have no grievance with her I have no bad tidings to wear out her name I have no complaints just one small regret well I'll make it two for I wish I had more time to be with her for I wish I still had the chance to speak with her All I have is a few pictures all I have is a few pictures and a few memories of those late nights we stayed up and talked of how she caught my eye in full black and white makeup sprinkled with a shiny ruby red to create her mask of her favorite comic book villain Maybe it was her eyes maybe it was her personality maybe it was how she seemed extraordinary something I hadn't seen everyday which caught my attention snuck in and pulled the string to give her my undivided affection I could have called it love at first sight but love didn't arise for a few days a few weeks I chose not to rush but my plans go awry at first light Still I cannot deny she was my ray of sunshine through my darkest November she was my ray of sunshine from mid October to early November she was special a marigold amongst dead weeds a butterfly in a symphony of wasps a perfect white cloud surrounded by hectic weather She was special oh Myria She was special still there's not much left I can say guess it's her I miss to this day I could conduct a search to find her I could try to find her number and call her I gave it thought fished it out of the water but I tossed it right back for what if she is doing better without me happier without me I was a greedy old scrooge with a mix of kind love and tenderness but still greed showed more so what... I don't know a misplace of context for now I have lost my train of thought for now my brain is scrambled and my words have become rocks Let me be honest she was not perfect Let me be honest she was definitely worth it Worth the month I spent in fooled eyes Worth the month I spent wishing to hold her in my arms as she planned to drive miles to be with me Worth the month I spent whispering tales of how she was my angel sent from heaven whispering tales of how she was my beautiful earth angel telling her I would never leave In my heart, my promise still remains true Myria, I will never forget you In my head, I ask myself is my promise still true Myria, where are you In reality, some would say I am just foolish but Myria, I was a fool just in simple love with you Myria, I could send a search party to find you Myria, I could find your number once again and call you a fished out thought but I tossed it back and let it swim for the rest of its life Myria, for you could be doing better off without me Myria, for you could be happier without me for I was a greedy scrooge but I'd do anything to make it all up to you Hey Myria I love you Hey Myria I will never forget you but Myria I will forever miss you and cradle you in my dreams well for my famous last words well for a fond memory to spend forever with you