Ugly Truth

I write upon this broken page, my tear stains smearing the words I write The ugly truth coming clear, like a slap across my face, on this sleepless night I never meant a damn thing to you; I am as worthless as this tattered page Bitterly I weep, frozen with regret and filled with unyielding rage Apology after apology I made to you even when YOU hurt me And yet, never, not one, have you ever apologized to me Always did I apologize to you even when I was hurt, And yet you could write a thousand page apology to ANYONE ELSE you’ve hurt But not me, never me because I was always NOTHING I have always been NOTHING to you Do you understand what I’m saying, DO YOU!? Because I cannot keep around going like this, seeing what is becoming a melting ground But with each wound you cause, each STAB, each BURN! You remain quiet-no sound Escaping you, even as I silently fall into nothing-but it doesn’t matter, because I never mattered DAMN you! Why did you ever make believe you cared!? Why did you ever pretend we mattered? Our friendship is nothing more than a ROTTING LIE! And I will force you to watch me leave, and I will not listen to you cry I will NOT listen to you ANYMORE! Damn you for playing with my mind and making me believe I actually meant something I always was sorry, even when YOU HURT ME I was sorry But you…YOU NEVER WERE! You NEVER cared you LIAR! I poured my heart and soul into keeping us together my friend But it was all for naught in the end BECAUSE I NEVER MEANT ANYTHING TO YOU! I hate myself for ever believe I ever was worth the tears on this page to you But I have come to realize that everything I ever thought was a lie…that every thought was wrong And now, NOW I WILL BE GONE! You’ve hurt me for the final time and I AM NOT SORRY! These tears of my will stop eventually, but you, you will be rotted with guilt And THAT pain, I hope- never leaves you, I hope you burn in your guilt