I write upon this broken page, my tear stains smearing the words I write
The ugly truth coming clear, like a slap across my face, on this sleepless night
I never meant a damn thing to you; I am as worthless as this tattered page
Bitterly I weep, frozen with regret and filled with unyielding rage
Apology after apology I made to you even when YOU hurt me
And yet, never, not one, have you ever apologized to me
Always did I apologize to you even when I was hurt,
And yet you could write a thousand page apology to ANYONE ELSE you’ve hurt
But not me, never me because I was always NOTHING I have always been NOTHING to you
Do you understand what I’m saying, DO YOU!?
Because I cannot keep around going like this, seeing what is becoming a melting ground
But with each wound you cause, each STAB, each BURN! You remain quiet-no sound
Escaping you, even as I silently fall into nothing-but it doesn’t matter, because I never mattered
DAMN you! Why did you ever make believe you cared!? Why did you ever pretend we mattered?
Our friendship is nothing more than a ROTTING LIE!
And I will force you to watch me leave, and I will not listen to you cry
I will NOT listen to you ANYMORE!
Damn you for playing with my mind and making me believe I actually meant something
I always was sorry, even when YOU HURT ME I was sorry
But you…YOU NEVER WERE!
You NEVER cared you LIAR!
I poured my heart and soul into keeping us together my friend
But it was all for naught in the end
BECAUSE I NEVER MEANT ANYTHING TO YOU!
I hate myself for ever believe I ever was worth the tears on this page to you
But I have come to realize that everything I ever thought was a lie…that every thought was wrong
And now, NOW I WILL BE GONE!
You’ve hurt me for the final time and I AM NOT SORRY!
These tears of my will stop eventually, but you, you will be rotted with guilt
And THAT pain, I hope- never leaves you, I hope you burn in your guilt