Trying Times

Trying Times Can I maintain this life Without begging Christ To save me From the life he gave me Can I walk to the plot To where lays my father death spot And stand over his grave His life is with me acknowledgement I’m is daughter but I wasn’t with him his last dying days Tears seem to not fall from my eyes Because I know emotion will not grow him back And the last words that utter from my mouth will be with me until the day that I’m dead they are now un-depart able bitter words that has now been said They say Gods give you nothing you can’t bare Trying time he’s given me trying times is in me I dream of some better days As a young child proven educate with good grades Wanted to be a woman at a young age Started working on my life Tried to blackout every thing in my life that went wrong Even as a minor I promise god that all my struggling was going to make me strong But lost in the mine set that I had no one to carry with me Turn my back on the people that had given me life Told them I didn’t need them so forget their advice I broke them down to the same feeling that rooted bitterness Spoke for me took hostage over my pride But each heart beat I wanted I wanted them to reach for me because all I wanted was to be their child They say Gods give you nothing you can’t bare Trying times he’s given me trying times is in me Fast I was moving Tried I was getting Still I wasn’t not going to stop Because I will never give up I instill in myself as long as I don’t misused my body and educate my mine There was nothing that could harm me Nothing Suddenly everything that I was reaching for turn around and ran from me And for the first time in my life I wanted good to save me I barely stop myself from falling to my knees begging him to free me For now I could see My daddy deceased My mother sickly And soon I will be a woman For I will be no ones child I feel as if I’m not ready They say Gods give you nothing you cant bare Trying time he’s given me trying times is in me