Trust Me Mom

My mind was poisoned with lies about me and mothers past A portrayal of a woman who abused her young daughter steadfast Animosity and pain I felt as I listened to their agonizing deceit Of a mother who misused her child, allowing her actions to repeat The vulgar names they said she called me, at the age of two or three Made me stop and wonder why in hell she ever wanted to have me? I believe the Lord did speak to me telling me to defend my mother’s grace And as I began questioning them, not even one could look me in the face I cannot recall the horrible things you say and yes, I realize I was young But what I recollect is her amazing strength and beautiful songs she sung Songs my mother sang to me as she gently laid me down to sleep Her soft soothing voice called out to me as she prayed for the Lord to keep Looking back upon my past, my memories of my mother’s an endless list Never can I recall the poisonous lies of a mother’s love which did not exist How could I allow them to feed me vile lies which pierced me like a knife? My loyalty should have remained with my mother; the woman who gave me life A sweet soothing voice and gentle kisses is all that comes to my mind Remembering a love for her daughter; being patient, caring and kind I cast out the lies fed to me; remembering all the sacrifices she did make Never taking her for granted again, guilt ridden by my many mistakes Please forgive me mother, for I was manipulated into a devious scheme My love for you is unexplainable and the lies fed were only a bad dream I promise never to doubt you again for your approval and love is all I seek Trust me again with all of your heart; the only wish your daughter bespeaks © Stacy Lynn Stiles