Treading An Ocean For Miles

Can I tread an ocean for miles eyes closed, in a paralyzed state face up, not thinking just whispering forgotten wishes It's raining can I just float away on a nearby wave silent, un-moving; don't have the strength to flinch this gripping pain only as far as the clouds pace but the fear of sinking is not reconciled thought just the breathing un-parallel Do I have to float or sink sink with sink with the sink with the anchor sink with the anchor attached to my feet No, just let me float on this endless sea No danger, the water calm eyes closed, paralyzed face up, not thinking It's raining silent, un-moving; gripping pain, un-parallel breathing no echos, no remembering regrets I don't need to remember to know I can never forget I can just feel it in the tumor its going to kill me for the rest of my life