Trapped

I'm scratching at the walls I'm trying to break through. There's a wall I won't scale And a gate I won't pass. I'm loosing my mind I can't catch my breath. Go through the motions Don't let others know I'm suffocating. Clawing until my fingers are raw There's always something else to do Somewhere else to be But I don't get to be me I'm trapped by the judgments I pass And those passed on me I waste my time trying to pick at the lock And when someone tries to open the door It gets blocked. There's only one way out And I'm trying to force it. Trying to break down the door Is it unlocked? It isn't But isn't it comfortable to be trapped Do nothing more than is expected Even if I got out isn't there just another room? What will be the next thing to trap me? If you're trapped you don't have to make any choices. You don't have to worry about what others think. I'm trapped and it's my own doing. I trap myself with thoughts of I'm not good enough Thoughts of what if someone is better than me? I'm trapped And I hold the key.