Tonight

Why, after everything, do I feel lost tonight? Like a ship that drifted out of calm waters and suddenly find itself adrift in an ocean of uncertainty Why, after promises that have been sealed by kisses, do I feel unsure tonight? Like a bird returning to its nest just to find it been looted Why, after months of building a secure foundation, do I feel unsafe tonight? Like my walls are unstable, the roof wants to take off and leave me exposed to nature and its merciless elements Why, after planning our future like Lego blocks, do I struggle to figure out which block should be next tonight? Like its not Lego but Jenga shifting for all to come tumbling down Why, after I, for the 1st time in my life, had no reason to doubt our future, do I doubt it tonight? Like we are not sharing screens currently and are on different pages Why, after baring my soul and loving all of you, do I feel like a stranger in the crowd tonight? Like our frequencies got scrambled by invading forces and each are left to fend for themselves Why, after committing my heart to you by word and deed, do I feel like my hand and efforts are slammed in the wind tonight? Like my arms are tied, my mouth is sown shut and you dont grasp the bewildered expression abd message my eyes are trying to convey Why, after there was no reason to doubt our happily ever after, do I tonight? Like your mouth utter the promise, your heart shine the truth through hungry green eyes, but the deed are shut down by an unwilling mind Why, after loving each other whole heartedly, do I feel like it was only a dream tonight? Like our reality is a nightmare and we were just cruelly taunted and seduced by the possibility of being together forever Why, after experiencing such utter joy and being contended, do I feel this nausiating uncertainty tonight? Like the games people play will have the upper hand and the last say to smother this dream Why, after loving you unconditionally, do I feel totally overwhelmed by merciless conditions tonight? Like my life boat crashed on the rocks and I have no certainty to fix my eyes upon for salvation Why, after sharing hopes and building our future, does it feel like a category 5 storm is enroute tonight? Like our dreams and promises will be disregarded by all and be leveled to the ground Why, with your usual calmness and few words, does it leave me so unsettled tonight? Like this silence, fear and uncertainty could build to a final blow for Us? Why, oh why does life need be so complicated tonight? All I've ever wanted and prayed for was to love and be loved by someone like you May it, may us, be enough reason for you to fight for us and prove to me these words are just ghostly visions and that our love is real and true and our future together secure and promised