Today Not Tomorrow

I have been untrue To myself and to my heart I waited for the questions to answer themselves I waited for the possible to become probable I cowered down behind shadows Even they shied away I cowered down behind lies Even they unravelled I cowered down behind those cowards Even they left in disgust Beneath the slime and muck of time I lie shivering in the cold Today I have said I, but never you Selfish is the soul that speaks To itself as it leaks Lies and deceit upon the shelves Shelves covered with hearts in jars These hearts that cry out the truth Their own echo is all they hear I avoided the truth I avoided confrontation Today I opened a door Only to shut another Time is a whore Time is the whore we all know The whore that stole it all Bottle up a heart in a jar She will reopen it some day As she has reopened secrets As she has stolen them back As she has taken my ego As she has taken my confidence Today I wait As I have waited before A day passes as time laughs As shadows scurry As lies fall apart As cowards roar As time cleans out I shiver more My love to you is ebbing A wait after another I question my wait, how I rot in this seat I question my wait as I hide behind deceit And yet I thank you For on this day I know I have wasted away before your gaze And your recognition is yet awaited Today I watch you get stolen away And hope for time to repeat For if only a second before I could have reached for you But now I wait To wait again I am selfish I have watched I have gazed I have dreamt I have wondered I have left you there in that dark alley awaiting my arrival And I say If only this seat had wheels If only this dreamer had heart Now I wait, for the moment I will rise And I wait For the moment you shall beckon I shall cast my shadow upon the steps I shall shed my skin of lies I shall roar with vigor from within the cowering forms of many And time shall stare with awe Wings I shall grow And together we shall soar Through days and nights we shall dance As time bleeds its envious blood Today I ask for you at my side Tomorrow I shall be there at yours This selfish capsule of a soulless trap Shall be a soul once more With all those forms casting shadows Soaring above the clouds of dreamers Paired off, laying on the moon Howling for the world to hear Today not tomorrow I shall be true © Samir Georges 2005