Today

YESTERDAY IS GONE AND TOMORROW IS THE STRAIGHT AHEAD BUT I AM SCARED. AFRAID THAT I MIGHT COME UP AGAINST SOMETHING THAT I CANNOT BEAR SOMETHING THAT I CANNOT OVERCOME. BUT I LOOK UP TO THE SKY AND I REMEMBER WHO BROUGHT ME OUT OF SO MANY STORMS. WHO HELPED ME WHEN THE RAIN DIDN'T STOP FALLING WHEN THE ROAD GOT ROCKY WHEN THE DEVIL TRIED TO KEEP ME DOWN. WHEN HE THOUGHT HE HAD THE VICTORY WHEN HE THOUGHT HE HAD ME AROUND HIS FINGER. BUT THE HOLY GHOST SPOKE FROM HEAVEN AND SAID THAT IT'S NOT OVER YET. I HAVE THE LAST SAY OVER ALL THIS I FELT THAT I COULDN'T GO ON. I FELT THAT I WASN'T WORTHY ENOUGH I FELT THAT I HAD DONE TOO MUCH. THAT I HAD BEEN MORE OF A HELL RAISER ANGRY AT THE WORLD ANGRY AT MYSELF. LOOKING INTO THE MIRROR SEEING A WOMAN THAT I DIDN'T RECOGNIZE A PERSON WHO WAS MEAN AND HATEFUL. WANTING REVENGE ON THOSE WHO HURT HER STRUGGLING WITH FORGIVENESSS AND LOVING AT THE SAME TIME. SHE WAS HURT AND CONFUSED SHE FORGOT HOW TO LOVE, HOW TO BE A PERSON OF MORALS BUT SHE KNEW SHE HAD TO PROVE HERSELF ALL OVER AGAIN. BUT WITH JESUS AT HER SIDE SHE KNEW SHE COULD DO ANYTHING.