To Love Again

The fears and doubts that cloud my mind So that day or night, peace I cannot find Yet when I look into my heart I see Love for you, true and pure and free. For deep inside my soul I know Love is freedom, a gift bestowed Though my heart is scarred, beaten, sad Your love broke through the walls I had. I am stunned, in shock I stare Up into the moist, autumn air I was so guarded with walls so high The pain of my life and so many lies. The sorrow that filled my worn heart The ocean of tears I've cried from the start When I was a child it all began For all my life seems a cursed plan. For how does one human suffer so much? No happiness or gentle touch When joy eluded me my whole existence You arrived with your persistence. You were so young, so free of all the pain It intrigued me so and pulled me in I've never known a mind like yours Where there's no fear, there are no sores. I long to have a mind that's clear And a young heart that knows no fear How can I wipe my slate to new? Is that what it takes to be with you? The rain outside, it falls and falls In my mind, my heart, your love calls Calls to me and wants me to remember Love is beautiful, joyful and tender. My hopes leap so high and so bright But the fool in me is filled with fright I pray to God and my angels above Please lift this curse so I can love.