Tired of Being Numb

The time has surely truly come That I am tired of being numb. The days of being in constant pain My life seems to be going down the drain. I am still quite heartbroken And some things can't be spoken. But 5 years have already gone by And today I heaved a weary sigh. I can no longer stay this way Just going through with my day. I have been on a ledge Standing there on that edge. Looking over and down Upon my face is a frown. I turn around and then look up That she is a tough climb, yup. But I reach up and begin to climb As I know it has come to that time. Time to either wither and die Or time to show life I can defy. New places are meant for me. A new woman you shall see. Oh do not get me wrong I have days I am not strong. But I promise to not be so withdrawn As I know my life is not foregone. I want to be someone my kids can be proud of Someone they know that will always give love. For them being gone was never my choice That in this instance my opinion had no voice. But one day soon they will come to find me I want it to be day of great joy and glee. For they will see that pain did bring me to my knees But that I got up and moved and refused to freeze. I did not die from all this pain But one day will I be able reign? Who is to really know? Just cannot stand another woe.