Time To Move On

My strength I have to regain Lethal injections into my veins Controlled myself I had complete rein Untold you came its an elite gain All I wanted was sex but that mentality slain You have unexplainable power Made a man out of a coward Able to counter And devour Anything life threw at me standing tall over towers I tried to slaughter The feeling but my holy father Said don't bother Don't be ashamed the feeling proper Look what she has done straightened your posture But the feeling was so foreign It poured in And I tried to resist it To stubborn to be submissive But it rattled my brain made limbs powerless as I fall to knee then stomach as ribs rip So I admit it That you and my heart mended Feels me and you were meant This is not a stint My heart vacant as you would say space for rent I fuked up badly I can admit But you also I can't forgive I thought you were legit Needed you in my darkest hour You saw I was hurt You pissed on my grave as I buried my body in the dirt As much as the emotion still stays within I pray the day someone takes you spot and someone ends this intrappment I'll never let you in again You've found someone who drives you wild Which is good I used to love to see your smile And even if our pathways are identical Mine is the road to recovery removing you from me you were more to me than any Biblical symbol But you saw I was wounded Ass the the bullet in my brain was soon to hit You took off the image I shall not soon forget So I've come to grips You were the first the only But its obvious you're not for me