'til There Was You In Real Life Pt 2

Yet it ended up out of our control This was years & months & months & years ago Right before Samhain in the weeks just prior to Yule 'Cause never have I ever fallen in love Never my heart with false hope I'll ever bug Its gotta be naturally & over time, you know Never have I ever let someone see me shine or glow I'll never let someone in that far for them to even know I can't remember the second I felt it 'cause the emotion smacked me in my heart like a ton of bricks I can't remember falling "head over heels" or when I caught those particular "feels" Nor can I remember that split second I decided 'yes,' but I know I Immediately felt superhumanly blessed for it to have been miraculously you For decades & decades - it seemed we were on a mission, too Red rose, red rose, your red rose An overwhelming, calming sense of serendipitous desire to know ALL of you I wanted to write another chapter within our memories•we've•created•book I get choked-up re-living how our awkward relationship came about But still I've never allowed myself the pain of ever falling in love (If I'm being brutally blunt & true) The closest I've ever began to fall in love Was when I got the unique pleasure of getting to be with you in real life So if there is ONE thing I want you to know Its that I suck at securing & explaining - but I'm master at proving it with show Actions mean more than words 'cause words are just something you heard with your ears And showing doesn't come naturally without fears There's lots of small things I don't believe you even took notice that I did 'Cause most of the time I just felt like it was expected But there were so many things - after they took you away, that I really needed to say to you But towards the end, I felt like everything I said you had somehow stopped believing were true But that makes no sense, considering our whole life it was only you talking with me that I ever got solace, comfort, or relief You gave me no reason to ever try and play you for a fool Even back when we were youngins - still going to school as we grew As kids you were my highlight many, many days And if you weren't online, my inspiration dwindled to even wanna try & play 'Cause you were my person when we gamed, too And nobody else felt the same way as you...