Through the Cracks

12/15/22 Among a society Obsessed with notoriety I get occasional anxiety Can't always find privacy Still a battle with sobriety A drawn out process or soon to pass Continual polluted gas Another disillusioned ass Followed by yet again brutal acts I'm always falling through the cracks Down beside sewer rats Couldn't find me on Google maps Who is god? I always move along Through the fog Never meaning to do it wrong Continually my life in question Like I never go in the right direction Too much time and bedlam A struggle with a Jekyll and Hyde complexion Who know's if I'll find ascension Climb to heaven Like the legend A lot 'Round the clock Ceasing to stop They think it's a crock, but it is not Easily I don't place such beliefs A continual junk heap The problems run deep Yet again smoked and drunk myself to sleep Growing strong The journey continually goes on So much keeps going wrong Sometimes feel like I just don't belong I'm not even that close to mom Just not the same as it once was Paid for it in some blood Gave it all much love Yet still they just judge It makes me upchuck From sundown to sunup They always try to one up over such stuff Time has exemplified A near endless genocide Continually being swept aside Poisoned by pesticide Never been rectified The culprit remains unidentified I stall or march This has nothing to do with Hallmark Most are all bark We are just not in the same ball park Still making a small spark Barely able to afford products from Walmart Soon to fall apart I could care less about the latest fashion I go until the point of being blasted Wake up with no idea of what happened Down to my last ration Until the next cash in During hard times it took adrenaline and passion