Thoughts

I think about my past more than I do my future It’s what slows me down I scream inside knowing I could’ve done better And I try to hide It’s hard to put into words what I feel at times And I’m scared to close my eyes I would give anything to take this pain away even for a moment But if I did I know I’d be lost in time I show my friends this image of a tough kid Cold hearted But it isn't me It’s just someone I pretend to be Got me so confused that I can’t even relate to me If I had to write a check for all Ive lost I wonder how much it would cost me Every decision I made Made me who I am And where i am is right where I should be So no more Could’ve Should’ve Would’ve bothering me Where I go from here Well That’s all up to me D.Christian