This Time Last Year

This time last year, my life was filled with fear My eyes were cloudy with tears and my heart was hurting and sheer I masked all my feeling in hopes that time would help me heal But things seemed to get worse and more worst still The people that loved me had no idea The people that hated me felt nothing by will My life was not worth living, but only I knew My child's smile was like sunshine, but still I felt blue I played it off like an actress up for an academy award But my insides were in shambles, as if I had been slayed by a sword I lived each day like a chameleon blending in with its environment But inside my soul was being tortured like a tyrant My individuality was almost nonexistent And my social interaction turned into resistance I hid from the world as well as myself Every time I exhaled, it felt like my last breath I was dying inside with no lifelines to use I was overly emotional and severely bruised Just when I thought I couldn't take it any longer I had a dream that changed my life and made me stronger Why should what you did to me make me sad? Why should the pain you caused me be so bad? Why on earth would I let you win? I knew at that moment my life would begin Never let your past control your life Never let what you've experienced stop your fight As simple as it seems, the complexity is what we face What happens behind closed doors still occupies space I learned who I am and what I am destined to be This time last year, is a year ago that I became free.