This Road

A twinge of imploring doubt at every action Tears spring from my eyes I shouldn't have—but I did And there’s no going back This road’s a heavy one, I’ll tell you that But it’s not every day I find someone like you Maybe it was worth it—just this once Maybe your eyes will open Though your heart may close This road isn’t getting any safer, I can promise you that It’s windy…and slippery—the fog makes it hard to focus But I can see your silhouette Though your back is turned to me It is not a frivolous chase anymore This is all I am! It shouldn’t be—but it is And I wish I could just look away This road is going downhill from here Figures But sometimes reaching rock bottom is a comfort I might just find you there—if I look closely This road doesn’t look so bad from below Wish I had what it takes to ride back up Let the wind carry me But don’t let it control me At least the wind that strangers offer Will give me some breadth for tomorrow But still, that split second I make a choice I’m filled with that dangerous sorrow… This road is looking up, and I can’t go any lower I’ve been around this part of town for a while Crazy junkies…litter…piles of bile That high route just glaring down at my choices This road was not constructed just for me—but for everyone But give me a break It seems I’m all alone here! These bozos enjoy passing me up—well, let um… Lord God, you know for a fact I’ve never doubted you Though it seems like doubting myself is a smack-dab sin right then and now Give me the strength to take the high road I’ve been there…once or twice before…