This Noose Named Jesus

before i knew what living was i lived what i thought was life and all i ever did was stumble fall and trip upon a knife just as the blade pierced my skin the thought of you fell in my head giving me one chance to breathe before my broken life was dead i opened my mouth to scream but cries of help came out it was then, i realized what i was going to kill was about the thoughts i had about you then were all i wished would not exist i'd bite my lip until it bled to avoid you with clenched fists every hate i had about you drove the knife inches closer so many times i wished to live just to pray that it'd be over i tried to run away to hide to keep a secret all my hate because i knew if i knew you it would be my hates fate the knife before me cried out 'hug me once and you'll feel fine' but in your heart you knew 'that soul was and is and will be mine' you were the noose that saved me killing all the life i lived you loved me through all the sins i never thought one could forgive a blinding light to see truth was what i lacked just to see through all the sex, drugs, rock and roll in your house you wanted me if empty never sounded right why did i wait so long to realize how much i needed you and admit that i was wrong you have called me to be the one to place you round others necks so you may end the lives they live stop unneeded train wrecks circumcise my heart for my sake bleed your blood upon my life shine through me so others see you can save them from their knife...