This Moment

Moment to think. Moment to clear my head. Moment to reflect, look in the mirror, and take accountability. Moment to love my reflection back. Because its life or death for me. A moment to sit and not think about anything. A moment to be without trying to be anything… just a moment. Yep, yep it means everything. A gun to my head, once pulled the trigger. Split second pulled away. From my head in that moment that meant everything. Back against the wall trying to figure it out. Don’t have answers but a moment of clarity. A moment with my back pressed up against the wall. A simple walk outside, yes, that meant everything in that moment of all that pressing pain. A moment to step out, to spill it out. Brave. The moment I did, God handed me a key. A moment of weakness manifested to strength of a better being. The past is that past, but right… Now is everything. In this moment. Suffering is just a hurdle but sometimes looks too hard to jump over it. People, places, and things won’t let you get over it. So I take walks on the beach. And the horizon shows that I’m not limited at all. In this moment. Because now means everything. In this moment of being. ©StephanieGutierrez2015