This Misty Mountain Road

This Misty Mountain Road By: Aidan Gilbert Heavy heart Guiding my own new start Walking a misty mountain road Alone with my emotional load Rocks coated with dusty dirt It’s talking me forever to embrace this hurt Holding the hand of pain Nothing left to gain I stare at falling leaves They remind me of me Of how quickly I lost How certain character traits had to high of a cost Rain now comes from grey clouds Natures way of telling me how How I destroyed everything How from my sin I hopelessly hang Stopped on this rubbed street Ultimate sadness blindsided me bringing defeat Now storming through this emotional ride In my hurt I can’t hide All at once it hit me head on Heart stopping reminder your gone Forced to open my eyes Let my soul cry And to not let our memories die The pictures of us flow in my blood The feeling of our love hit me like a flood I remember our first date How we stayed out late I remember our your smile Our letters in a pile Our bittersweet time How you were mine But the last memory I had was the first time you cried When I told my last lie I knew you deserved better When our mess got wetter Not from blood but tears How I turned into your greatest fear But my one time abuse was just an excuse A diversion from me accepting the truth The truth that our loved failed That our love was stale My mistakes I do regret But me changing myself I can let I know you never thought our love wasn’t fake You whispered that to me the day I left on the lake I know our love died when I made that mistake From I hate I had to wake I still love you though We don’t have to be a forever no I stare at the trees Dreaming of the man I could be This misty mountain road I roam Looking for a home I know I’m in a better place Putting you in my heart’s case When I’m ready I’ll come and open it But right now just hold on a bit