This Lust Is Like Being Hooked On Drugs

I disappointed God by living a life where I should have died Many times often times I wanted to commit suicide Because of the shame that wouldn't subside Meeting people I didn't know My affections I couldn't let go  I could only imagine that it's like being on drugs I Only really wanted was for somebody to show me love Hooked on it like heroine Loving that thing God hates and so does most of the world Loving boys when it should have been girls Sometimes Most of the world does what i did as well But what do you do when your lust and your emotions Are boiling over burning like coal Or like a pot on the stove  And when people throw verbal blows  But don't you know that God will put a block on you Cause He will keep them away and keep them at bay I could have been destroyed and I should have been Cause God will give you over to your sin  Cause you don't know where I've been Both emotionally and sexually  My disruption was apart of my destiny The way to your destiny is pain Like child birth but dont sin against God keep God first Lest you be worse yea I know it hurts Don't let beauty of men and women devour you Or overpower you  love the inner you as well as the outer you