This Is How It Is

This is how it is everyone is destined to be lonely. A little happiness can come around to cheer them up but after a while it's just me myself and I that I can trust. I won't cry when the people you thought were real began to talk, it's how it always is and only best friends survive the tide. But it always seems that I never fit. I am here and I am there but when I come into a group it's just me and they see and after a while they treat me like I've never been. It's sad I know that i'm destined to be alone but this is how it is and I guess I will never have someone that I can be truly real with. It's makes me upset sometimes, I am feeling so dependent on this person and it's like I need them to survive but what I've realized is that they are my bridge but I don't need them there so I can cross it. Eventually they come around but it never is the same. It's a ways away from how we used to be, like a hurricane hitting an island the after affects are brutal. I finally got to do this and I finally got to do that but now that I look back I used to be more independent. I used to be happy being alone. People can change you and not for the good... Sometimes the change is eating you slowly until they drop you like a piece of garbage feeling used. It hurts, But this is how it is and I guess I have been stepped on too many times in life to recognize the real me. I need sometime off and then maybe I will come back but independent it's sounding better and better as I go on each day.