This Is a Dedication To My Father

A father that who was never there that I cried lonely tears of missing a man that didn’t even want me that a man threw me on streets in the rain or a shadow and left me that he didn’t even know me or understand me born into a world full of confusion pain and lonely tears wonder why a man that I wanted to be like so much didn’t even want me that it seemed like everybody had a father around me except me that my mother was trying so hard to be that father figure that the words she was speaking wouldn’t even come to me that I was in streets hustle looking for a father figure to but life in me that the person that I really love went to the pearly gates and left me Because on my block most of the boys didn’t have a father and they father didn’t have a father so they on the block hustling rocks selling them to there own mother that the street life was the only life for me that my mother cried lonely nights wonder if I am going to walk threw the door that night or scared she might see me on channel ten news that night I wonder night after night what did I do blaming myself for things that my mother went threw crying myself to sleep asking god to just pray for me never understood why a man said he loved but never was there that man would call me and say I am going to pick you up and never show up That my friends never had a father so they slapped there females around and beat them for no reason but they had reason why because they never had that father to show them how to love there female and not beat on them that growing up seeing your mother beening slapped around knowing you cant do nothing about it thats a struggle