Things That Stuff My Mind

Exhausted, yet I can't sleep So glad that I don't want to weep You're living your epic life While mine cuts like a knife Under the horizon, I see the reflection of the sun Over the rainbow, I see a songbird and its wings aglow My muse is flowing like a rapid river and above it is a feather In your shoes, I'm showing you how to live life a little better I better get going before you shower me with your regret I know you're afraid of letting go, but it's the only outlet Motivated to go the extra mile It's rare to find that side of me, Knowing that I'm living under a rock Or living inside a box or a dirty sock It was all my fault that you've gone away It's not a surprise that I have betrayed you It was all a big misunderstanding today Open your eyes and see things come true Things that I say and do... Things that I can't undo... Things that make you blue... I force a smile as you leave my sight I guess I did you more harm than good Might as well be misunderstood By misdirected, humiliating insight Hope you find peace in your habitation Hope you find joy amongst your frustration My hopes and dreams are under construction Thank you for your condolences of past destruction Maybe, you'll see with no web to blind you Maybe, you'll see things that you never knew All you put me through was trauma and drama All you did was toss me over the agitated aqua Did I ever matter to you? Was I just a useless thing? Was I just a mere dream come true? Am I everything or nothing? Here's a thing... This is not a bling If you really wanted me, Why didn't you say so possibly? I should have seen this coming... This neglect, this abondonment... I would have prevented it from succumbing... To this madness, chaos and resentment Or things of that wild and reckless nature... Stuff accumulates inside my head... Agonizingly filling me up with dread... Instead, give me a reason to fall asleep Life cuts like a knife, but yet I refuse to weep! Exhausted due to things happening in my life of minor lifts and major putdowns Yet, I have courage and strength to wear these smiles instead of these frowns I have the potential and stamina to move on without a thoughtless care Great...dealing with difficult things in the past that pop up here and there Under the horizon, My muse is flowing Above the sun, God is all-knowing...glowing...and it's slowly, but surely showing I bend my knees in shame... Why, oh why did I sin again? I spend my time, losing this game The blame is on me and then... I am forgiven... I promise, oh I promise... I won't sin again... Now, I must live with open eyes Things come and go to my surprise At the very least... Now, I feast on my grief's yeast Sorry, I disappointed you and failed life's test... I let you down once more and it hurts to know it so well I must rest my fatigued eyes and try my best to rest Tired of things of my past, coming up in the surface in which I dwell Memories shatter and fix themselves... Mine sure did that You think I can break under pressure... Well, think again! I am struggling forever it seems I'm fighting back tears of defeat I am trying to fix my broken dreams Time and time again, landing on my feet I stubbed my toe It seems as though I have hurt you so There's so many things I still don't know I guess I'll learn and keep learning About all the things that you bring up a lot Well, some can keep on burning... But, I haven't given up, so drink your I-lost-it-all shot While I drink up completely and pack up my things And...I bet you know the rest as you get comfy in your nest It's as if my wealth and feelings have grown wings But, I must chase after it before it goes east to west Exhausted, so I'm falling asleep So glad that I am not a lost sheep You're deep in your well of farewells While I'm in the air... only our time tells... You smeared the nasty blood of fear Upon my face of once humbling cheer You cut me in pieces of nothingness You are a hard nut to swallow, your heiness It's too early to be fighting over pleasure It's too late to be leaving room for leisure Breathless and speechless more or less as usual I haven't lost my marbles yet, so keep it cool I haven't the time to waste anymore You must leave through this front door I, for one, must mend these scars And seek silent slumber with shimmering stars I'm appalled by all the things I see Just go away and don't think twice I'm sorry I couldn't heal your injury If all else fails, let me pay the price And I remorsefully let out crimson and you don't even see the pain I am afflicted with It's all that's left of me...oddly enough, you remain unmoved... And I can't hold on to the things you gave me, so I won't carry it around like a worn-out myth It's the things I can't unsee...your actions and things approved... You forgot about me And yet, you ask for my forgiveness? Wow, how can that be? Do not regret the things we did regardless We were careless when we were young We were a success when we did belong I'm living my bittersweet life While you live with soiled strife Our horizon will glow though Our destiny and such will show If we deal with things ahead of time Not all things last an infinite lifetime