Things Happen For a Reson Even If We Don'T Know What It Is

I used to believe that love was something that you always got for your boyfriend. So I used to tell each one of them that I loved them. But the last guy I told it to was different. I felt for him a way that I have never felt for any other guy. I couldn't go without him. But I told myself that it wasn't serious we'd have to break up after graduation anyway. So the day I caught him with another girl it didn't hit me with how bad the love was. It had spread from my heart to my entire body. My every move was him. The way I spoke the things said and my personality had changed all because of him. It took me forever to realize that I was truly in love. He was the one that helped me when I needed it even if he didn't want to and yet despite the fact that he cheated I still want to be with him. He is the reason why I changed. Not completely but from the little girl he first met. You know the immature teen? To the very much grown young lady. He taught me to ignore things and look at each bad situation as a lesson. That's the only reason why I didn't go off when I saw those two at the movies. The old me would have damaged her face and made them wish they would have stayed in. But I wans't the same girl as before. I was the one that wanted to talk things out. I wanted to be the girl of his dreams but he told me the last time he had I dream we hadn't even met. He didn't want to have anything to do with me. So I had to let things go. I knew that this breakup had a purpose. And although I haven't found it yet I'm patiently waiting.