They Punish Me When I Stand Up For Myself

the problem to my life is that i live a lonely life i speak to no one im all alone all my problems are big and grown cant trust anyone they all have betrayed i have never asked for help for i thought i didn't deserve for the treatment that i get is one i wont forget to breath the air in peace and to be able to get to sleep is what i dream to do even when i feel so blue time is not a friend as i find it hard to pretend that my life is good and great being alive is a big mistake thought everything would be alright got so bad held myself tight crying on the bed with my head in my hands listening to them screaming out demands i scream at there feet "leave me alone "let me do my thing "i do everything you want " just let me do one thing " let me please rest " its truly for the best " i need to rest my head " feeling drained "feeling dead. get up off the floor and do what we ask you now you selfish little cow we ask you to help out and now you scream and shout its not like you to say leave me alone.... i have to say you surprised me good but im not one to do you good do as i say now or you will get hurt dont live by my rules sleep in the dirt