The Way Things Are.

Close your eyes and count to 10, then you will know just how i feel. Empty,and dark,lonely and week, this is the pain that I don't want to keep. I have a close mind, I feel really ashamed, people think I bring a bad name. I try to say I'm sorry, but its never good enough. I always fail, but i try to stay so tough. I cry myself to sleep, No one will ever let me be, Im trying to change, but no one is willing to see. All I want is to be happy, and not live in pain, but its like ever time something happens, I seem to be the blame. I realize that I will never change, My life is like a board game, You always loose at fault. No matter how many times you play with it, it seems that u always get knocked out. My sorrow is like a memory, that will never go away, I feel so helpless and sad, every time I pray. So now I'm telling you, the pain that I share. Just because i smile and front, doesn't mean it's not there. I feel like a hopeless beast, that really in disguise, and to tell you the truth, No one can save my life. But let me tell you something, and don't get me wrong, if you make a false statement at me, I will prove you wrong. i just want to let my feelings out, that what this poem is all about, I'm a woman and that without a doubt.