The Way That I Feel

THE WAY THAT I FEEL, NO WORDS CAN EXPLAIN.PLUS THE PAIN THAT I FEEL I CAN HARDLY MAINTAIN BECAUSE IT'S DRIVING ME INSANE.THE OTHER WAYS THAT I FEEL,SOME-TIME AS IF I WANNA DIE.OR MAYBE RUN AWAY,AND DON'T EVEN ASK ME WHY BECAUSE I'M STILL SEARCHING FOR ALL THE OTHER REASONS WHY.WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY? I REALLY WISH THAT I KNEW,SO HEAVENLY FATHER I REACH OUT ALL MY UNSOLVED PROBLEMS TO YOU.I WISH I KNEW THE REASONS WHY,BUT THE ONLY OTHER OPTIONS I HAVE IS TO BE CEASELESS WITH MY TEARS AS I SIT DOWN AND CRY JUST LIKE I'VE DONE FOR 15 IN A HALF YEARS.IF NOBODY UNDERSTANDS IF THEN I'M NOT GONNA STRUGGLE JUST SO THAT THEY CAN.I WISH THAT THEY COULD FEEL ALL THE HURT & PAIN THAT I FEEL BUT ALSO THAT I FEAR DEEP DOWN INSIDE,AND TO BE SINCERE I ALWAYS HAVE HAD THE FORTITUDE EVEN WHEN IT SEE- MED AS IF I COULDN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE I STILL HAD THE COURAGE TO FACE MY DIFFI- CULTIES BECAUSE IN LIFE I AM LEARNING THAT MY LIFE COULD BE BETTER AND THAT I CAN HAVE SO MUCH MORE THAN I DID ONCE BEFORE.......