The Way I Love You

One would think we would come to a place Where we can bow out of life's hectic race Find that one spot where we have our own space But as I make my way I find this isn't the case We are taught to always do our best To look at life as if it was some kind of test But some of us are just thrown into the mix We start off with challenges and problems to fix But I never look at it as if my life has been hindered I handle it all by keeping a few things remembered That nothing special in life has been promised to me And by accepting that whatever will be will be Though my hurdles in life seem to be an endless list I seem to be blessed with some special gifts One being the inner strength that i have in my soul To never be one to let life take its toll I will take on most anything and with that being said I am not one to have anything looming over my head By protecting myself I was protecting my mother She needed protecting after losing my sister and brother But this was something not natural to me I'm more of one to kick down the door if there isn't a key Now that she's gone that obligation now done She was able to pass on having one healthy son I am one of many, though not all may agree But most will say "eventually it will happen to me" Now comes my time to set my soul free And to take on this monster they call HIV I won't say there's no fear of course I have some But I don't want anybody thinking what has he done To let this define me and to some it might I don't really care who thinks that I'm wrong or I'm right With support or alone on the darkest of night It was time to stop running and to stand up and fight The endless testing and fear of receiving a positive test In some ways it feels good to have that part put to rest I've always battled for others with an iron fist But now my fight goes to the front of the list So to all, some still here and some in the here after I want the air filled with smiles and with laughter My plead is no pity or tears to be shed I want only positive thoughts in everyone's head To all that I love this is what I ask you to do Simply love me the way I love you