The Voices In Me

As i sit on this bathroom floor, gripping a blade in my hand, with it firmly pressed on my left wrist. I start thinking this thought that could change everything.. End everything. I think of the people who would miss me. I think of the people who wouldn't care. I think to myself, "Should I be doing this", this voice inside me says, "Yes. Why are you living anyway? Nobody cares for you, they wouldn't even notice you're gone. They don't love you.. Come on, do it.. End it now, it's the best way.. It's the only way. The sound of the voice was so weird. Well I can't say the voice inside of me was wrong. It had been completely right about everything. What if this was the only way? I wish it hadn't been true. It is the only way. I think to myself, "Suck it up! It will all be over soon. Just one, two, three quick slits and you're done. Get it over with already, i'm tired of thinking about it! Then all of a sudden, a voice said, "Stop! What are you doing? This isn't you." The voice was so heavenly, so clear, so... Beautiful. I didn't bother wondering where the voice came from, because it came like the weird voice inside me. I told the voice, "You don't know me! You don't know anything!" SLIT SLIT SLIT. Crimson blood, running down my arm. I feel calm and in control, but the pain is unbearable. Unaware of it, I start to feel tears running down my face. I get dizzy, the bathroom I lay in gets darker. My heartbeat gets slower, then, I fall into a deep sleep. Or what I think was a deep sleep. After a minute, I get up from laying on the floor. I look around, I see blood on the floor and something else.. Me. Still lying there on the floor, unconscious. I looked so relaxed. Then it came to me. "Am I dead?" Where is hell? Where is heaven? I committed suicide so heaven is not an option. I sit back on the bathroom floor.. Confused. I fell asleep next to my body. Morning came, I wake up feeling groggy, confused. I hear people banging on the bathroom door and yelling. I stand up, stumbling. I look around to see blood still on the floor.. But the unconscious, bloody body was gone.. I was gone. Am I alive again? I cleaned the blood, put on my best face and hid the scars. I opened the door and a bright light hit my entire body like I just stepped into heaven or something.. Everything is just so clear now.