The Unholy One

Rays of the sun reflected my sinful image on a blood river got every wrongful part of me to quarrel and shiver happiness is what i sought, remorse is for givers every natural-colored spot ON my heart turned silver Inspiration was my fantasy, clouds were my sky death scares me,yet i desire it, desire to die was it shame? shame that i see with blinded eyes never saw glittered water, ON the surface of the sun they hide What did i do so wrong?! for God to choose me a sinner the horizon line infront of my dead soul's corpse got thinner even the power of nature couldn't uncast HIS deadly glamour my wish in life was to win yet i lost,never been a winner Life has tightened its strains on that poor heart of mine Did I? did i indeed have a heart? to feel how LOVE could be so divine but yet , all my sins were purified, by the scene of the horizon line taught me that at times, forgiveness , was the crime of all crimes Grandeur i did not seek, i realized, it was only a fake wish a gesture to my undecided inner-self,with hidden pureness so rich recently knew how heart pain was nothing like a normal stitch If Jesus Christ u believed, then how could you my other cheek ditch? For if you felt it at its peak, you would have utterly known that DEATH was your close friend, and I pushed him away to the unknown you wouldn't have given me those looks, those ocean-roars,those frowns if only you knew how much i begged the clouds , "thee not ,at her, throw stones" then you would have saved my soul , saved our sacred vow , saw our blond sons shared the feeling of bliss and GRANDEUR with your love, the unholy one !! My source of inspiration (L)