The Truth

The Truth In the depths of my heart, a story untold of love both precious and painfully bold for the one I love so much has become so cold to the touch. He said to turn to him when my skies are gray, to release my demons and we got this together, trusting him once again with words that I have always learned to hide because no one wants to hear about what's going on in my head up there, to even try to understand how I feel, but for me to feel I better not dare to express how I'm constantly fighting these demons, that are winning this fight because I'm fighting them alone but you swear your right there shining so bright. The demon I tried so hard to hide and keep locked up and chained behind lies broke free and turned you against me. Now beauty in me you will never see because it's his face you see because I feel weak and let his face show in fear. Fear of rejection, fear of losing, fear of feeling heartache, regret, and disappointment. My fears caused you pain and that pain made you betray me with the words that roll so perfectly off your tongue sharp as daggers cutting deep into my soul leaving scars on top of scars that I no longer have the energy to repair. Leaving me paralyzed with pain that fuels this dark flame. Burning my soul in the depths of my heart I tried to protect you from these powerful demons that take souls destroy lives rip families apart by building a wall of lies to keep you out of this hell that I'm trapped in not to hurt you or take every last bit of happiness from you it was to save you from this dark hole I was left in since I was five years old. I have scars upon scars and never once have I felt whole, until the day I met you. You showed me how it felt to feel loved, to smile to feel my heart skip a beat butterflies in my stomach to feel that my life meant something to someone worth protecting I felt alive because I have never felt that before. And although I loved that feeling, I feared it because im shackled to this unbelievable pain that I held deep inside that will take it all from me because I don't know how to set myself free. From the depths of my heart a story untold of a love both precious and painfully bold.