The Stupid Thing I Did

All i could think about that day was, Am i going to die? I did something stupid, I did something wrong, I know i shouldn't of done it, But i did it anyways. I took 20 Tylenol PMs. I had to sit. I had to think. I went to the neighbors. I thought i was going to die. They said to call 911, But my mom said no, Did you even care? Did you want me to die? I could have died. And i almost did.. And all i could think about, was, Am i going to die? Thats all i ever wanted right? Was to die? Yes. But after you almost do die, You change, And realize how much you want to live. I am on a mission. That mission? To find things to live for, Then writing them down. I have a past. I have secrets. I have things no one knows about. But sometimes, its too much for me to handle. That day all i wanted to do was die, But then i kept hoping i wouldn't. I was ready to say goodbye. I was ready to leave. But then again, I wanted to say hello, I wanted to live. And i am sorry, For anyone i scared, Anyone i worried. I wish to do it again, And i probably will, But not anytime soon, Or i hope not...