The Shattered Heart

The heart aches with pain of betrayal... Trusted thoughts, secrets, desires were handed over delicately, hesitantly, carefully… To the gentle healer… Full of kindness, tenderness, gentleness... The secrets of the heart laid bare with hopes of healing…. The struggle with desire declared with vulnerability... With open hands and open heart…. Trust was blindly given… Why would the gentle healer betray the trusting heart so vulnerable? Abandoned and alone in the sterile, clinical world where no heart beats… Where kindness, and gentleness and tenderness are not valued… Tears, cries of anguish, pain, passion all dissolved into wet showers of tears falling down… Into the soft white blanket …. Hidden from the living and breathing world…. The gentle healer died…. Where was he?…she cried… Where was the one who had listened for one hundred and twenty four hours? Where was the tender heart? Why would no voice echo back to her calls? Where had her gentle healer gone? Why could he not hear her cries? Her confusion intensified…her longings intensified… The meeting of shame ….turned her world upside down…. The brain cannot make sense of love taken so abruptly…. The blame and shame centered on the broken and bruised one… Confusion….Anger at God…Why? Why? Why? Why did God not answer her cries for help? Why did God not answer the only cry of her heart? To be taken home…into His glorious presence….free from pain…. Why…would God send her back to earth… To suffer the betrayal with pain so great… The heart is shattered….the pieces are too many to put back together… Trust…faith…hope….gone… Despair, depression, pain…. The Shattered Heart….