The Searching (1995)

I’ve been dying inside for so many years I’ve bee searching for a cure I try so hard to understand what my body is telling me I can feel my heart aching, the void I feel is so strong I’ve been searching for ways to fill what was never given as a boy I had love once and for a time my heart and soul were content But I put my happiness at jeopardy long ago And since that time I just haven’t been the same I’ve accomplished so many things in such a short time But I’m being engulfed by rage anger The beast within my soul will not leave me alone My heart, mind and soul are not sound I can feel that I am at war with myself I’ve been exercising my body and mind But my soul is lost in the abyss This hollow feeling of loneliness So many emotion are building up inside My quest for happiness seems to be an endless journey. I’m breathing so heavy lately and the pain within my chest grows stronger the building of my foundation is weighing me down the child inside is hiding but I can hear him crying my smile has disappeared and my eyes have become so sad. I have no strong religious belief. I’ve been seeking exodus in so many alternate ways. They say you must love yourself first In order to gain peace with your own inner beast I must face all of my fears, it is only then that this dead and empty feeling will heal the child inside.